Mentally Tough

I’ve always known I’m a strong woman but I learned how much grit I had this past week.

As I’ve said before, I’m pretty overwhelmed this semester with a heavy homework load, class schedule (so many group projects) and working two part time jobs. Oh- and running errands, preparing meals, cleaning my house, spending time with my grandparents, trying to fit in a workout, blogging, having step kids every other weekend and trying to spend a minute or two with Ryan.

Last week I was told that my Grandpa only had days to live. My aunts came up from the States, my family looked up flight prices and I thought “How can I handle this on top of everything else?” I didn’t want to tell my professors, boss, or fellow students because there is nothing I hate more than people feeling pity for me.

The day I heard my grandpa was going to die within days I had a choice to make. Do I fall apart and let my life fall apart with me or do I suck it up? I took the morning off classes to see him in the hospital and to talk to my family and then I headed in to work. We’re still trying to catch up on bills and I knew losing even one day’s pay was going to make life even more stressful. I cried the entire drive in but told myself I was tough and I’d be fine. I had a productive day at work, I didn’t tell anyone what was going on I just buried myself in my work.

This is what I look like on the inside- FIERCE

This is what I look like on the inside- FIERCE

I spent every evening at the hospital with my family and brought my laptop and worked away on my homework. I went to a four hour study group session on Saturday. I made sure to finish what needed to be finished because I decided that I was not going to let myself be weak. I was heartbroken and sick but I was still able to function. They say that all people need some stress in life to make them capable of coping with future stress and man am I good at coping with stress now!

It’s a happy ending because Grandpa rallied and defied the expectations of three different doctors. He’s getting better and was even singing yesterday morning. A huge weight has been lifted off me and I’m glad that I was able to keep it together during this hell of a week.

Thank God I’m mentally tough. I know that my war veteran of a grandfather would be proud.

Take THAT life stress!

Take THAT life stress!

4 Comments

  • Charlotte March 7, 2016 at 4:20 pm

    So happy to read your grandpa pulled through. Best wishes with all your responsibilities.
    And when life gets tough just think, “What would a shieldmaiden do?”

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  • Becky @ The Bex Factor March 8, 2016 at 11:30 am

    Oh wow. Amazing that your grandpa pulled through. You’re definitely a strong woman to not crumble under all of that weight.

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  • Kaella On The Run March 9, 2016 at 4:46 pm

    So happy your Grandpa is doing better. You’re one tough lady!!

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